A day in the life a life that was adopted.
My life is just like your life; however I may be more grateful for my life than many others.
This gratitude was not something that was easily found and something I struggled with through out my childhood and an area of anger, confusion and frustration. It is not every day that I was reminded of where I came from, only when something happened when that I thought was unfair. Or when my body developed completely different from my older sisters. Any major life event, like my first homecoming, graduation & birthdays. Or anytime I was happy or complacent, I thought of my sisters and my birth family that could have. I spent my childhood in perpetual bouts of happiness and resentment.
But those thoughts have greatly transformed to gratitude.
My life was an option, I could have very well been terminated.
I choose to be thankful for my life.
For many years I have taken my life for granted, smoking cigarettes, taking drugs, getting piss drunk and defiling my body by giving it away to men who I would never see again.
I almost did not have a life.
I almost did not get to go to one of the best public schools in the nation.
I almost did not get to go to college.
I almost did not have enough lacrosse training to play at a division 1 level.
I almost did not have the opportunity to achieve my highest potential.
I almost did not live my life.
If I almost did not have a life, I need to be grateful for it. I need to take it for the beauty that it is. So I have chosen and learned to live with intent. I think of my birth family with great gratitude and love. I cherish them deeply, they are my motivation for everything I want to achieve. I want to thank and honor my birth mother, every second, every moment for every breath I take. I do that by living more mindfuly, be embracing the present moment, understanding that my body is truly a temple.
If we look at each of our lives, adopted or not, we all have a reason to to live with gratitude. WE ARE ALIVE.
You birth mother are the reason I can say thank you, and mean it. For always and ever.
Life: live it.